Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Playing Ninjas with Dana Linn Bailey

They had a big party last night... at the Warhouse Gym.
I met Dana again and we talked excitedly about their new play areas that had big metal swings hanging from the roof and large areas of trampolines and soft mattresses where people could jump around and do tricks :)

Dana said that the Key to her happiness in bodybuilding (and life in general) was the Feeling of freedom that she had when she swung high up in the air and didn't let herself fall... her arms hurt and she felt sick sometimes but she never quit when it got hard, she always stayed up there until She Was Ready to come down. She never came back down if she felt bad or sick, she always enjoyed her stay up there and that's why she kept going back. That's what kept her hungry for more.
:)

I asked: "But isn't it a constant struggle then? Don't you wish it could be easier and don't you miss the feeling of just letting go of everything and just flying through the air (for a short while)?"

Dana: "No, that's not what it's about, no no no... what I do up there might feel hard on the joints at first but the point IS to let go of the hurt! The point IS to stop focusing on the circumstances and the situation and... START focusing on the Feelings you have up there! It's actually a wonderful way to teach yourself to think more clearly and to Focus on just ONE THING. What ever you choose it to be... and don't worry if you fall or if your mind wanders. It's all good. You can't get it wrong and you'll never get it done. Right ;)"

Me: "Right! :)"

Friday, August 26, 2016

How to be sick in style

Don't allow anyone to put pants on ya.

Refuse help.

Pass out wherever.

Stay optimistic that if it is cerial you want it is cerial you get, on every meal...

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Natzies and "dying"

The dream changed me for good...

I've been worried about death these last years. Maybe the last 3-4 years. I'm not worried I'll get it wrong or fxck it up somehow, I'm just having (or WAS having) problems with Feeling OK about "losing and being lost". I miss some people that have made the transfer back to nonphysical. I know they are Perfectly happy and I should be too, but I still cry sometimes and I don't understand Why...
Until I listened to a tape where a woman told me in plain English that my crying is just a sign of "letting go of resistance": My thoughts are not what I feel deep inside me, so to let go of those "lies" (I have lost loved ones and they cannot reach me either) I need more time to shift my belief and more relaxation to allow the real truth to come out.

Like I said : my DREAM, last night, showed me I am ready, now.

It had been a long day and night. We had climbed up the mountain side to the beautiful gray castle, "The Sleeping Bride" it was called... and we were there to blow her up. All the bombs had been prepped and we had the timers in our hands when the Natzies found us in their wine cellar.
20 Natzies. No way out. Just a shit-load of explosives and the two of us holding the key to doom.

It took us but a second to decide:"Yes, we're blowing us all up..." I was there with a man. The best agent in his field. I trusted him. I remember even having warm feelings for him the moment before we died (or was it after...). He was someone who I Enjoyed sharing this end with.
I remember being hunched down behind some wine barrels with an old climbing helmet on. It felt stupid to have a helmet on but we were supposed to climb back down after we had finished our task. I kept my head to the ground and wished for a swift and painless end. As the first waves of pressure and fire blew over us, I had time to push against them with my feet but as I heard my friend say :"I think I'm a bit scared." We were already floating in white light and everything was alright. Everything was perfect. Everything was all Love.
We were home again. We were awake again.
And we were together.
Our energies were pure and Joyful.

The dream never showed me the Natzies that blew up with us but I know everyone comes back to the white light. We do not carry Anything back there. No luggage. No past. Nothing to declare. Nothing to forgive. All is remembered and all is good.

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Meditation as a habit

Excellent....

I can breathe myself to calmness and soft feelings in just a couple of minutes.
I can put the outside noises into bubbles and send them away.
I can reach a sensation of clarity and joy.

I can do this every day.

:)

I'm much happier when I meditate once a day for a few minutes (5-15min).

Friday, August 12, 2016

Full body freak show while meditating

Coming soon...

Something Really freaky happened last time (meditating just before bed time). I'm gonna try it again today.

If you don't hear from me, I probably "went in to the light..."

;)

Sunday, August 7, 2016

Delts and metal

Here's a stretch/massage I came up with since I'm soooooo alone at the gym and soooooo eager to find new solutions to help myself...

The Pictures will explain it.

Head movements while meditating

I listen to ~15min guided meditations every week. (I sit up for these. When I'm meditating on my own, in a quiet room, I usually lie down.)
I've started to pay attention to uncontrollable head movements that I sometimes have.
It's a strong nodding movement and it always comes at a point in the guided meditation where I totally agree and love what I'm listening to AND the words I'm hearing are about a (strong) question I have in my mind.

It is a safe feeling and a very good feeling. It's pure Love (in my opinion). If someone were observing me they would wonder if I'm just doing it spontaneously because I'm feeling the message (spoken on the meditation tape) and smiling to it.

But no. I'm both wide awake and in deep meditation.
I'm tuned in, tapped in and turned on.

I'll try it again tomorrow and videotape myself ;)

Saturday, August 6, 2016

Stick a fork in the moment


I look like I got ran over by a truck full of sumo wrestlers sometimes. ..
But the feeling after a long/hard work out is never something that needs all the right words.
It's a great feeling. 
And it adds to the hunger to do it again and again. 

The best knify-knife

It's not the sharpest, it's not the prettiest but I always go with my old "army knife".

It's good for cutting branches, chopping wood, basic cooking and other stuff...

I got it from dear old dad half a life time ago.
It's the best.

;)

Friday, August 5, 2016

The Meaning of Life

It is JOY.

Life is about feeling joy.
My life is about feeling joy and living the way that I will feel joy all the time.

I'm getting there... I am really good at it these days.
I wasn't always. I used to live like "others do"; I believed in old sayings and I thought that being a realist was the norm (and I'm not one). I used to think that there must always be struggling and pain. I used to think that there is a source of evil in the universe that equals the amount of good we see.
I used to think that we are all we are (plus some separate ghost that we call a soul) and that our past and future hold just as much power as Now.
I used to think that there's always something bad on the way if things go well for a long time.
I sed to think like a fxcking idiot.

Life is Joy. My reason for living is Joy.
There is no source of evil. There is only Love and the resistance of love.

Don't resist it. Take it All in. It's all Love ;)

You'll feel it.
And it feels sooooo good.